Having training in SGX nowadays, 9-5, damn tired =\ In case anyone doesn't know, SGX = Singapore Exchange (aka hotspot for stocks and shares). Learning lotsa stuffs about how stocks work, quite amazing! Too tiring though, to take a bus from and to Shenton everyday. Imagine life like this for another 40 years? I won't call that life anymore, more like survival. But, God rewards the honest, the hardworking and the faithful ones. :)

Campbell Soup posted his thoughts at 12:32 AM * * *

blog template is screwed up, don't feel like blogging.

Campbell Soup posted his thoughts at 12:49 PM * * *

tired! recently trying to do too many different things like doing resume, browsing for jobs, going for interviews, doing temp work, catching up with frds, arranging outing, catching my fav. tv shows, playing PT & Xbox ... attempting to auction off my Xbox, reading forums for 750i info, meeting bei ... bla bla bla~

incoherent. i think thats how I sound at interviews. somehow, whenever i'm being interviewed, i kinda get glazy-eyed and stony. my mind stops working and i start getting nervous, sounding incoherent and everything comes out like rojak. i dun even know what i'm really trying to say at that moment?!?! i hate interviews >:( Weird questions seem to be the norm for every interview. "So, how do you take note of your daily routines?" What kinda crap question is that!! The truth is, i sometimes write them down, sometimes store in my neural HDD, sometimes i make little program sheets. but in the whirling tornado, i mean interview, i only mentioned writing them down in some organiser. screwed :O and this, for a lousy paying contract job! i bet the next time i go for an interview for a perm position, there'll probably be like 5 war machines ready to blast a hole through my heart any moment, a panel of interviewers carrying auto-machine guns and hmm, that poisonous cup of water they love to offer their victims.

Campbell Soup posted his thoughts at 2:05 PM * * *

little bird wootie
chirped sadly.
sighing at the view,
of the vast outside.

wistfully it sighs,
poor little bird wootie...

one fine ironic dawn,
little bird wootie awoken
to a shattered jail.

little bird wootie
shut its eyes,
and sped away,
into the gloomy skies.

when little bird wootie
opened its eyes,
it cried.
the vast outside
was quite,
like the dull inside,
only larger to hold
greater evils.

poor little bird wootie...

Campbell Soup posted his thoughts at 12:06 AM * * *

Just a simple something written for fun, or so i think :P

i'm a perfectionist
which means,
there is nothing
ever good enough,
which also means,
happiness is rarely mine.

i see the world from above,
while the others see eye to eye.
i feel the pain from their sins,
they sin to feel the joy they desire.

i can peel my coat off,
one by one.
show the scars from this pain
that no one understands
will i be me to you,
still?
will the world sigh or scorn?

remove me from this heart,
that scorches me deep,
that thinks to itself,
despite of me.
but without this pain,
there is no me,
or does the world prefer,

a puppet show?

Campbell Soup posted his thoughts at 1:55 AM * * *

wow, this film, I'm gonna watch ...
not to mention, hotel rwanda guy is in it!
sorry children, its RA :P

crash

Taken from GV review:
A Brentwood housewife and her DA husband. A Persian store owner. Two police detectives who are also lovers. A black television director and his wife. A Mexican locksmith. Two car-jackers. A rookie cop. A middle-aged Korean couple.

They all live in Los Angeles. And in the next 36 hours, they will all collide...

A provocative, unflinching look at the complexities of racial conflict in America, CRASH is that rare cinematic event - a film that challenges audiences to question their own prejudices. Diving headlong into the diverse melting pot of post-9/11 Los Angeles, this compelling urban drama tracks the volatile intersections of a multi-ethnic cast, examining fear and bigotry from multiple perspectives as characters careen in and out of one another's lives. No one is safe in the battle zones of racial strife. And no one is immune to the simmering rage that sparks violence - and changes lives... Funny, powerful, and always unpredictable, CRASH boldly explores the gray area between black and white, victim and aggressor...and finds no easy solutions.

Campbell Soup posted his thoughts at 2:34 AM * * *

This is a turning point of my life. Somehow, it feels strange, sort of hollow inside within me. What kind of changes will I make to adjust to the new environment? I remember how it used to be frightening yet anticipating, when a year has passed and there was going to be a new class, new friends, new subjects. This is much more serious though, there's no one to make decisions for me anymore. It used to a rolling ball with walls on both sides restricting its movement. Now, there's no barriers nor guides.

Maybe we humans are no different from the machines we build ourselves. We like machines, need an Operating System. Something that provides meaning to our existence, a purpose we are useful for. At this moment, for me, its like having to decide which OS I want to install.

In fact its more than just the transition to a working environment. It is life, the whole big picture that needs proper scrutiny.

Who do I want to be?
What do I want for me?
How do I want to see?
Do I want to be free?

It is the direction that is vital in this fragile period of time. Make or break. It feels old to think this way, but maybe I am? Everything is hanging by a thread now and I am the puppet master this time. Everytime when it seems too difficult, I keep telling myself "Just Do It". Don't hesitate, don't comtemplate, don't look back, don't look around even, just eye the prize and run the mile. Thanks to Nike's slogan, I've accomplished many things in life that I wouldn't have had because of my lack of determination & motivation. Haha :P A man's gotta do what a man's gotta do. Right now, the only thing I wish to do is to sit at a beach, watch the calming waves and hear their monotonous repetitive slushes.

Campbell Soup posted his thoughts at 1:33 AM * * *

This flash Parking Game is damn addictive ~_~

click

Campbell Soup posted his thoughts at 6:40 PM * * *

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miss bei :P

Campbell Soup posted his thoughts at 10:14 PM * * *

2 June 2005 opening day.
Ok I'm desperate lol, but is anyone interested to go watch it with me?

Campbell Soup posted his thoughts at 11:28 PM * * *